SUBLIMATION OF FEAR

SUBLIMATION OF FEAR

 

I HAVE BEEN CONFRONTED WITH A NEW WORLD, A NEW WAY OF SEEING AND OF BEING SEEN!

 I AM TIRED OF THE ORDINARY AND HAVE THE STRENGTH TO SUBMERGE INTO THE UNKNOWN.

THIS IS MY TRUE COURAGE AND CONQUEST!

 I WILL ALLOW MY SUBLIMATION OF  FEARS TO GUIDE MY WAY.

 I AM ALLOWING MY HEART TO OPEN TO THE RISKS OF VULNERABILITY AND JOY.

I SHARE THE EMOTIONS OF A CHILD AFRAID OF THE DARK AND THE STRENGTH OF JOAN OF ARC!!!

 I AM AN ANIMAL BY NATURE, WITH RAGE AND COURAGE.

I AM LEARNING TO TRANSCEND WITHIN THE MUNDANE WORLD!

 MY EMOTIONS AND ENERGY ARE INTENSE!!!

BEWARE I MAY SNAP!

I AM CHOOSING TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT FOR MYSELF AND FOR THOSE WHO BELIEVE IN ME…

HAPPINESS HAS HIT ME AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO REACT.

I MUST TAME MY IMPATIENT TENDENCIES THAT SOMETIMES HIT!

I KNOW WHAT I WANT FOR THE FEAR OF LOSING IT!!!

MY PAST HAS BRUTALIZED THE WAY I REACT!!! TORTURED, REVENGED, STABBED IN THE HEART…

YOUR KARMA WILL GET YOU THREE FOLD BACK!!!

TRUST ME FOR I HAVE PAID MY KARMIC DEBT!

I SEE THE LOVE AND PAIN WITHIN MY NEW WORLD.

I REFUSE TO LET IT TURN COLD.

I AM LEARNING TO FLY AND REFUSE TO COME BACK DOWN.

I TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND HOLD THE HAND OF THE ANGEL WHO HAS  CREATED ALL OF THIS.

WITH DAMAGED WINGS AND THE SMILE OF A GOD, I SUBMIT TO THE FLIGHT!!! I FEEL THIS IS THE INFINITY THAT HAS BEEN SEARCHING FOR ME.

WHAT HAS DIED HAS BEEN RE-BIRTHED INTO MY NEW REALITY!!!

MY FEAR OF LOVE IS SUBSIDING EACH DAY..

LOVE DOES NOT COME FROM WORDS, IT IS A FEELING FROM AN UNKNOWN SOURCE.

WHEN IT CANNOT BE EXPLAINED I PROMISE IT IS REAL!!!

EACH MISTAKE IS A LESSON FOR THE NEXT.

WE BECOME WISER WITH MORE INTENSE INTENTS.

SOMETIMES WE NEED TO JUMP FROM THE TOWER BURNING DOWN.

WE NEED TO RELEASE OUR FEARS AND TRUST THAT OUR STRENGTHS WILL NOT LET US HIT THE GROUND.

BELIEVE IN THE UNKNOWN AND ASK FOR WHAT YOU WANT!!!

MANIFESTATION IS REAL SO BE CAREFUL OF YOUR THOUGHTS.

I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE MENDING OF MY WINGS.

I AM LEARNING TO FLY AGAIN WITH RAPID SPEED.

HAVE FAITH IN WHAT YOU WANT, FOR IT WILL BE GIVEN.

I ASKED FOR MY HEART TO HEAL AND FOR THE EVILS TO GET OUT.

I REALIZED WHO I CAN TRUST FOR THE WORDS SPOKEN FROM OTHERS MOUTHS.

JEALOUSLY IS REAL AND CAN BRING ONE DOWN.

AS I’VE BENN RECENTLY TOLD!!!

 BE CAREFUL!!!

 I DON’T WANT TO SEE YOU GET HURT!!!

 DON’T LOOK TO DEEP!!!

 IT MAY NOT LAST!!!

FOR ALL WHO HAVE SAID THESE THINGS TO ME, GET THE FUCK OUT!!!

YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I HAVE INCURRED WITHIN MY PAST; THEREFORE, HAVE NO RIGHT STATING THOSE JUDGMENTS UPON ME…

I DESERVE ALL THAT IS IN MY LIFE WITH HAPPINESS AND CONTENTMENT…

 I NEED TO WRITE THIS FOR MY SPOKEN WORDS ARE NOT HEARD…

I WANT TO BE HAPPY AND CONTENT!!!

I OWN WHO I AM; THEREFORE, YOU SHOULD DO THE SAME FOR YOU.

I WISH NO HARM FOR THOSE I SHUT OUT!!!

I JUST CANNOT GIVE MYSELF TO EVERYBODY ELSE.

I HAVE DEDICATED MY WORLD TO WHAT IS RIGHT FOR ME…

IF YOU THINK I AM A BITCH, PETTY OR RUDE, YOU WERE NEVER MY TRUE FRIEND; THEREFORE, YOU'RE NOT MEANT FOR ME!!!

IF YOU LIE UPON LIE, IT IS NOT MY PLACE TO COVER FOR YOU!!!

BE HONEST TO WHO YOU ARE AND THE TRUTH WILL NEVER HURT YOU!!!

I HAVE CHANGED AND AM PROUD OF WHAT I HAVE DONE!!!

I REFUSE TO BE TAKEN FOR GRANTED AND WILL HELP THE DESERVING TRUE SOULS.

 I AM A NATURALLY EMPATHIC SO I FEEL IT ALL…

I HAVE WEEDED MY GARDEN AND NOW IT IS CLEAN!!!

I LOOK FORWARD TO THIS NEW WAY OF LIFE THAT HAS BEEN CHOSEN FOR ME…
1/12/2008